Bex and their Anxiety

Let me just say that I have never liked change. These past three years have been full of more change than I could have ever imagined, which is to be expected at this stage in my life. In the beginning of my college journey, I was scared, but I also had this naive idea that like in high school, everything would stay roughly the same throughout them. That's not true. Life has been throwing curve balls at me ever since I set foot out of my little homeschooled bubble. I was thinking last night and I asked God why he keeps bringing people into my life, and just when I get to know them and love them, they leave. It was one of those times, I audibly heard God's voice in my head tell me, "Well you want to be a teacher don't you? You need to learn to be ok with this kind of thing". And that just made alot of things that have been going on, mostly at work, finally click into place. I get to know someone, train them up and teach them everything that I know, and then they lea...

Hey everyone! Time for another entry in "Becky's College Adventures"!  Hard to believe I'm almost done with my first year of college! It really went by fast. For those of you who don't know, I've changed my major from special education to just general Elementary Education. Although I still have a heart for kids with disabilities, I've decided that my job outlooks and general happiness would be better in a mainstream classroom. Well, lets talk about my second semester here at Triton! My Classes RHT 102- Freshman Rhetoric and Composition 2     My English class his semester is in the exact same room as my class with Bob and my crush last semester, so first day of this semester was very emotionally nostalgic, being in the same room with completely different people, still expecting my two favorite faces to walk in. Well, they didn't, and 102 is alot different than 101, but the papers are shorter, which is a good thing. Mr. Martinez is  young and brand n...

That seems to be the only question anyone ever wants to ask me anymore, not "How are you?" or "What's Paul McCartney up to these days?" or "How many of the Beatles albums on vinyl do you own?" or "What are your thoughts on the Star Trek episode "Amok Time"?" (Which are all questions I'd love to be asked, mind you). No, all anyone wants to know is "HOW'S SCHOOL??".  And all you will hear from me (besides this post) is "FINE, THANKS".  Cause school's just that. Fine. I'm a first semester freshman at Triton College (for those of you that didn't know). I was homeschooled my entire school career before this, so I guess people are just surprised I haven't been pulverized by the outside world yet. Well people, let me tell you my thoughts on school.         The Classes      Psychology 100- The professors pretty cool and has some very informative slides. But no matter how hard I study, I can'...

Hi! My last post was on the Nez concert, wasnt it? I've been busy, and lazy. But mostly lazy. I thought I'd hop back on here and tell all two of my faithful readers about what I've been up to and share my thoughts and some pics. The day after my birthday, i got my driver's license! Its been really fun getting to have that freedom this summer. (I think my lil sis enjoys it too lol)  I also got to petsit for a family I've been friends with for awhile and that was really a great experience. I mean, I  got to look at this face for over a week. What a fun dog! Tori, The novia scotia duck tolling retriever During the time I was petsitting, I had a free night, so I went and saw a late showing of the movie, Jersey Boys. WOW! Thats all I can say! Jersey Boys is the best movie I've yet to see, and I am now head over heels in love with John Lloyd Young, and Frankie Valli and the four seasons.  Camp! Camp was the highlight of my summer, as always. First, I w...

This is a post I never thought I would be lucky enough to write. But, I have done it. I have ,met my absolute favourite person in the whole entire universe, Michael Nesmith. I saw his show, twice, because I could only get a conversation pass to the second one, but had bought the tickets to the first show ahead of time. His tour was called "Movies of the Mind" and he told stories about what each song brought to his mind. So, on to the part when I met Nez!      Before the show, I had gotten a gold, sparkly wristband with his name on it and a sticker with his tour logo and the date on it that would let me in to see him afterwards. After the show, I stood around in the lobby where they were trying to gather all the people with conversation passes. A man led us up some stairs into the room where we would meet Nez. There were some tables to the side, so some of us set our coats and stuff down. We formed a line, I was 4th! This conversation was oversold because of technical trou...

"When they've tortured and scared you for twenty-odd years  It's then  they expect you to pick a career  But you can't really function you're so full of fear" - John Lennon 'Working Class Hero' "When I was in school, the teachers asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I said I wanted to be happy. They said I didn't understand the assignment. I said they didn't understand life" -John Lennon   These past few weeks have been alot for me. I'm a junior in high school and I have next to no idea what I want to do after I graduate.  I mean, I'm 17, and now  I have to decide what I want to do for the rest of my life ?????!   My dream job is to be a musician, but I'm not that good, and music is a hard field to get into. Not to mention my parents think a career in music is a joke.  I feel everything is being thrown at me right now. ACT, college, job, car, etc. Sometimes I feel it's just all too much.  I become overwh...