Bex and their Anxiety

"When they've tortured and scared you for twenty-odd years  It's then  they expect you to pick a career  But you can't really function you're so full of fear" - John Lennon 'Working Class Hero' "When I was in school, the teachers asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I said I wanted to be happy. They said I didn't understand the assignment. I said they didn't understand life" -John Lennon   These past few weeks have been alot for me. I'm a junior in high school and I have next to no idea what I want to do after I graduate.  I mean, I'm 17, and now  I have to decide what I want to do for the rest of my life ?????!   My dream job is to be a musician, but I'm not that good, and music is a hard field to get into. Not to mention my parents think a career in music is a joke.  I feel everything is being thrown at me right now. ACT, college, job, car, etc. Sometimes I feel it's just all too much.  I become overwh...

So, last week i was with one of my friends and she said something that really hurt me. She probably didn't realize it, but it did. She said something around the likes of "Why are we even friends? We have nothing in common!" She said it jokingly, but that kind of stuff really kills me. I know, and I'll admit , I've never seen the Avengers, or Pitch Perfect,. I don't like manga and I have no intention of ever watching Dr. Who.  I let those words she said eat me up inside for the past week, until I couldn't take it anymore, and I collapsed in my room; an angry, misunderstood mess. Then I thought to myself, " Why do I keep obsessing over what I like, when no ones else i know does?" and a little voice inside me said "Because you like them and they make YOU happy, and they make you, you" And you know what? I'm right. I like the Monkees, and I like The Beatles and I like Star Trek, and no one can take those loves away from me. Then I went ...