Bex and their Anxiety

This is a post I never thought I would be lucky enough to write. But, I have done it. I have ,met my absolute favourite person in the whole entire universe, Michael Nesmith. I saw his show, twice, because I could only get a conversation pass to the second one, but had bought the tickets to the first show ahead of time. His tour was called "Movies of the Mind" and he told stories about what each song brought to his mind. So, on to the part when I met Nez!      Before the show, I had gotten a gold, sparkly wristband with his name on it and a sticker with his tour logo and the date on it that would let me in to see him afterwards. After the show, I stood around in the lobby where they were trying to gather all the people with conversation passes. A man led us up some stairs into the room where we would meet Nez. There were some tables to the side, so some of us set our coats and stuff down. We formed a line, I was 4th! This conversation was oversold because of technical trou...

"When they've tortured and scared you for twenty-odd years  It's then  they expect you to pick a career  But you can't really function you're so full of fear" - John Lennon 'Working Class Hero' "When I was in school, the teachers asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I said I wanted to be happy. They said I didn't understand the assignment. I said they didn't understand life" -John Lennon   These past few weeks have been alot for me. I'm a junior in high school and I have next to no idea what I want to do after I graduate.  I mean, I'm 17, and now  I have to decide what I want to do for the rest of my life ?????!   My dream job is to be a musician, but I'm not that good, and music is a hard field to get into. Not to mention my parents think a career in music is a joke.  I feel everything is being thrown at me right now. ACT, college, job, car, etc. Sometimes I feel it's just all too much.  I become overwh...

So, last week i was with one of my friends and she said something that really hurt me. She probably didn't realize it, but it did. She said something around the likes of "Why are we even friends? We have nothing in common!" She said it jokingly, but that kind of stuff really kills me. I know, and I'll admit , I've never seen the Avengers, or Pitch Perfect,. I don't like manga and I have no intention of ever watching Dr. Who.  I let those words she said eat me up inside for the past week, until I couldn't take it anymore, and I collapsed in my room; an angry, misunderstood mess. Then I thought to myself, " Why do I keep obsessing over what I like, when no ones else i know does?" and a little voice inside me said "Because you like them and they make YOU happy, and they make you, you" And you know what? I'm right. I like the Monkees, and I like The Beatles and I like Star Trek, and no one can take those loves away from me. Then I went ...

I have friends. That is a statement I constantly struggle with believing. I put WAY too much thought  into every social interaction I have. I worry what the person's thinking of me, if I'm changing the way they view me, or if I'm boring them. I'm just really tense around people. I like to think people have a positive view of me, but I'll never really know. I have two categories of friends. I have my "in person" friends (  Faith , Becca ,  Joy , and many others), and I have many, many online friends that I have met through twitter. Oh, how I love the glorious world of twitter. My Friends on twitter understand me. They get my obsession for the beatles and monkees, because they themselves have the same obsession. Now I'm not saying I don't love my "in person" friends, but I really love my twitter friends. So, to you twitter friends, thank you for understanding me, and chatting with me, and just being some really cool cats. Save The Texas Pr...

Can you believe its April already??! Soon the weather will in the 70's, we'll all be wearing shorts and flip-flops, and best of all, (for me at least) NO SCHOOL!!!!! But having no school leaves one with an awful lot of free time. Last summer wasn't what I wanted it to be. I spent way too much time wishing I was some where or with someone or doing something I wasn't.  I am going to seize this summer! Take control of it! So, here is a list of things I plan to do this summer (hopefully):                           Go to Camp (and maybe meet a boy ;) )                           Run alot                           Learn to skateboard without killing myself                           See a Beatles Tribute Band      ...